Monday, February 4, 2008

Help from above

I have always joked about how "dead" I sleep. I talk in my sleep, hence the name of this blog, and have even talked to people on the phone in my sleep. Apparently I can also get up, walk around my home and be very angry in my sleep.

A few nights ago Hoss woke up in the middle of the night. Donnie said I started yelling, "Shut Up!" to Hoss, who was in his bedroom. Donnie got up and took care of Jake, but that did not satisfy me. I was rude to Donnie telling him I could handle the situation because, "I'M HIS MOTHER!"

Only I couldn't handle it...I was asleep. Even though my eyes were open, I made eye contact with Donnie and spoke to him, I was asleep. He said he even asked me if I was awake, as this has become a more regular occurence in recent months, and I said, "OF COURSE I'M AWAKE."

What's that I remembered none of this. I hate that I yelled at my family, but I was not in control. I have not encountered this problem since this occurence; however, I think I scared my poor baby to death. The next morning at 6 a.m. I heard Hoss awake in his room talking so I went to check on him and he was laying on the floor with his pillow and blanket beside the baby gate. How sad, he didn't cry or ask for Mommy because I scared him the night before.

Now, I add an extra request in my nightly prayers, if Hoss needs me in the middle of the night that I will totally wake up and handle the situation calmly.

Asking God for help with my parenting is something new for me. I know it seems like a "duh!", but it's not something I've done much.

The day after the night time trauma I was getting frustrated with Hoss because he would not go to sleep and I could feel my frustration coming on. I nearly lost my temper. I caught myself and prayed. Wouldn't you know that as soon as I ended my prayer I began to sing "Jesus Love Me" to Hoss. A song I always sang to him when he was an infant as I rocked him to sleep. He was asleep within 2 minutes.

God answered my prayer and He continues to. I just hope he doesn't want me to have a sleep study done because that I'm not so sure about that!


Jessie said...

It would not suprise me one bit if I started to do that! I bet that since you are so tired and stretched - it has a big part to do with it. I know that when I don't sleep, I am not a nice person - AT ALL...only thing with me, I remember it. I'll pray for you too and maybe you'll get all better!

Janelle said...

Wow! I'm cranky in the night, but I'm awake and fully aware of it, which is just as bad-I'm choosing to be nasty to my family! Is there something you (or Donnie) can do to make you actually wake up? Have you asked a doctor? I'll be praying about that, because you are a great mom and don't need to think otherwise!!!

Fratzels said...

How heart-wrenching that must be! God is good and he answered your prayer, so that's a step forward. As Janelle said, however, a trip to the doctor might be in order. Who knows...maybe they'll do a sleep study on you!

Pam said...

I have been known to do crazy stuff in my sleep, especially when I was a kid. I would walk and talk, and not remember a thing!

Qtpies7 said...

My husband talks in his sleep, too, and I do occasionally. It was really fun when he was in military intel, lol, I would wonder if Pinochio was some sort of code word, hehe.

I thought your blog was named that becuase Jake was allergic to wheat or something, lol.