Reminiscing

Bedtime has been difficult for us this week. Monday night we discovered that the musical aquarium which is attached to Hoss's crib is no longer working. This aquarium has been the lifesaver in getting Hoss to sleep at night. It was possibly one of the best gifts we were given...thanks Mom!

However, the loss of the aquarium (which during an attempted repair tonight we discovered that the button is broken on the inside, which I am sure is from repeated smacking by some small child) has caused quite a disturbance in sleep this week for poor Hoss.

Tonight as bedtime approached I decided I would rock him to try to get him to sleep. While this was not completely effective in getting him to sleep it was perfect for me. As I sat in the chair rocking my massive two year old child I remembered all those nights I spent doing the same with my small newborn. Tonight I sat listening to the same classical cd which played for many nights two years ago as I rocked my then 2 1/2 month old to sleep.

Since Hoss has gotten older and more independent I have not had to rock him as often. I miss those times. The times I get to cuddle him close as he lays so quiet and still in my arms.

I guess this is the bitter sweet part of being a parent. We get to watch our children grow and become independent, but we loose these moments. I think the breaking of the aquarium may bring me a few more of these moments. I plan to cherish each one.