Friday, November 21, 2008

12 Days of Thanksgiving, Day 6

If you are a man, you may not want to read this post. Or maybe you will; it may give you some insight into the mind and mood of women. Well, at least this woman. I really can’t speak for all of us.

I am so thankful for hormones. Yes, I said HORMONES! (I warned you men!) I know you are probably shocked to read that, but allow me to explain.

Without getting into too many details, let’s just say that the regular cycle women get each month has not always been happening for me. I was diagnosed 5 years ago with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). My dear Hoss is a miracle child as I was told I probably could not conceive. You can’t believe everything you hear because 10 months and a day after our marriage Hoss made his appearance. However, at the same time, don’t take things for granted because, we are experiencing the inability to conceive now.

Along with the loss of the monthly visitor, I had the loss of regular female hormones. I did not realize just how much I missed the hormone until my active medication therapy began over in the past few months.

I can FEEL again, people. I didn’t know I had stopped feeling, but I had. I can cry now and boy, can I cry, I had a big reservoir built up. When someone else hurts, I hurt. I am no longer sitting by wishing I could be genuinely authentic about my empathy. I don’t have to fake my feelings anymore because now I feel again.

I am even gullible. I am not second guessing everyone’s motives. When someone says they feel something I believe them and have compassion on them. I’m not jaded. (This is not an invitation to take advantage of me, some of the bleeding heart is still sealed, from this thing called life).

I believe it is all because, the hormones, they are back. And I am back.

I never thought I’d be so happy to wake up crying because of a bad dream.

Of course, don’t ask my husband what he thinks about my hormones. There are good and bad sides! We will focus only on the good side, okay?
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Bobbi said...

Those pesky hormones can be horrible!

Natalie said...

Yeah I have decided to go to the Dr and see what my options are. I HATE having periods bc mine are so bad. We want to have a child just not right now, but I am not sure that I want to stay with my depo shot. The joys of being a woman!

hls1209 said...

Isn't it wonderful being female?? I am sorry you are having such a hard time, I hope things work out for.
I am a few days late doing the "12 Days" post but I started today.