Monday, September 17, 2007

WARNING: Pity Party Ahead

Ok, so I have been told that I need to update my blog a bit (thanks for missing me Becca!). Since I've been missed, I have decided to put a bit of effort into posting tonight.

And this is where I get stuck every time I start to blog...

And I'm stuck again.

Ok...let's see what I can say here.

Lately I have been just blah. I don't know what is up with that really. I think a lot of it has to do with stress at work which is causing me to work a little extra and the stress continues over to the rest of my life.

Or the blahs could be due to upcoming medical adventures we are pursuing soon. My mother-in-law is having a surgery on Friday and Jake is scheduled for a minor surgery in October.

I guess it could also be mourning the passing of infancy and the beginning of big boy-hood (ok, I know that's not a word, but I like it!). I think part of that is that I wish we were venturing into big brother-hood, which is not currently happening and this is leading to even more mourning of the passing of Jake's baby days.

I also could just be feeding off the mood of hubs, as he is struggling with work and needing to move on to another job...but that perfect job just is not falling in to place right now.

So, there it is...the reason for my silence...I hate to bring you all down. I've never been good at sharing my sad feelings (yes, I have a degree in social work) because I hate to bring everyone down with me. Plus, I feel guilty for being down because I really have no reason to be. My family is healthy, we are employeed and living in a nice home, so I have nothing to be sad about.

*Sigh* Maybe tomorrow will be better!


Pam said...

Hang in there! Something good will happen soon! Whenever I feel down, I try to think of how much worse off things could be, and I count my blessings.

Qtpies7 said...

Aww, I'm sorry! We've all gone through those sad times. Its ok to go through them, even when things seem like you shouldnt' be sad.
Remember "this too shall pass" and you will be fine.
We struggled with not having a baby for a long time, and later when we looked back we could see God's plan in that, and we are glad, but at the time it was very frustrating and depressing. God always gives at the right time.

Jessica said...

I am sorry that you are having the "blahs!" But, don't apologize...we all have those days! As a matter of fact.. I have them often : )

Hang in there and I hope you feel better soon!